"making that decision wasn't an overnight thing.to be the one that decides it won't work really feels terrible.i wished it could have be otherwise."
I am living to make your name high!
i'm pretty much extremely in love.
shir " WHAT A CUTE BOY!"
it's not boy shir, he's a MAN.
and i love it.
I am living to make your name high!
IT'S NOT WISE TO BE FREAKING OUT. BUT I AM FREAKING OUT IN A HAPPY BUT YET A LITTLE SCARED MANNER.
.......that aside......
pastor judah smith is AWESOME! love the weekends! hillsong united....DOPE! i was like in the 2nd row catching all the action! such a sweet presence of daddy.
love the american language.
"It's not about separating ourselves from the world, but it's about living differently."
~ Joel Houston
I am living to make your name high!
i love him so much.
I am living to make your name high!
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yesterday's meeting was pretty intense. but glad the theme is finalised.
had mixed feelings after the meeting.felt a little out of place/insignificant.
but all's fine. i cried,literally, out to my abba father.
i believe there's a reason why god gave me such opportunity.
this test shall be a testimony and it's definitely a OUT OF MY COMFORT ZONE moment.
I am living to make your name high!
" flow with your leaders,and their visions."
when i heard this,i realised just how easy it is to bring myself to submit to whatever responsibilites my leaders have asked me to do.
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throughout the first half of the day,in my mind was constant worry of the study skills workship. it's really out of my comfort zone,and i felt like it was a chore to think of ideas for it. but when i heard that line of flowing with my leaders and their visions. i realised just how easy it is.
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i don't mean ideas come to me instantly but the way i looked at it is different. i realised that all the worrying and "out of comfort zone" thingy is clouding me from the real reason why the team is organising this.
and when just sitting there,i reminded myself of the visions of this event,and whatever that i do,is to bring forth these visions into reality.
and when i thought of that, i realised how easy it is to just serve under my leaders.
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i'm excited to draw a mindmap now of the event's theme. :D but shall do it tomorrow.
in every season,god has appointed a time for it to happen. it's no use for us to rush into a season that we're not ready for.
I am living to make your name high!
today was a very new experience for me,personally.
honestly,i'm feeling really nervous,worried,and really need god's grace and favour.
well,ytd was informed about a meeting regarding a church event.didn't know much details but went to attend it, and realised that i was in the head committee,which handles basically everything.
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was absolutely new to it,because i've never done such a thing before.or serve in such high level before.whilst the rest of the team are like leaders. so it was a little scary considering that apart from planning this event, i have yet to know them personally.
as i think about it,i do feel stressed,since we each have our own individual responsibilities to handle. but grace grace.
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but this challenge shall prove to be a testimony.and i believe and know that this opportunity will turn out for my good.
it's a chance to really step out of my comfort zone.
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but right now,i still got 2 days to think of the theme name and some topics.
GRACE GRACE DADDY!
I am living to make your name high!
i've been tumblr-ing a lot lately!haha! alright,so i've neglected this a little.
but i can't help it! all the photos of SYN,JAE! omg.JOSH.omg.
alright,get a grib mel! hahaha.
shir forgot she has lessons today...AGAIN.
woohoo.currently in the midst of illustrating something.
bye love!
I am living to make your name high!
abba father! i need money!!!
:D i created a tumblr account.thanks to the many temptation from yinzhen.
haha.i love it.but i'm a little hooked.esp with photos of syn,a7x,and jaejoong.
but i just wished there were more christian materials.
but i love it! damn,now it's so much more difficult to curb my excitement over my fav musicians.
i mean,with handsome photos of syn and jae,i think it's very hard to resist.
I am living to make your name high!
today was yet another fulfilling day,as i spent it with am.da,the soon-to-be army lady.
she'll be booking in next monday,so thankfully i still get to hang out with her on sat.
praise the lord for good weather,it was dizzling but it didn't last long.
and the left side of neck was really pain,but after anointing it,the pain is slowly going away.praise daddy!
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today,i suddenly thought about ryan. he's this guy,who i really adored during the past 2 yrs. and it was very difficult trying to let go of the feelings.but i did eventually. i thought about the possibilities. but in reality,it'll never happen.
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was thinking about a few stuffs,thinking about my friends.esp am.da and candy.
how i'll miss am.da so much,she's the closest friend i have in church. how i will miss the weekly hang out sessions, we could go to the funniest place ever. like nature walk,spca...and so on. it's really fun.but it's alright,it's not like i can't contact her. :)
we could still hang out,just this time,it'll be on the weekends.
as for candy,we go way back and honestly i didn't expect her and i to remain that close,if not closer after sec sch,but thankfully things didn't go as i expected. and i'm more than willing to be her friend forever.
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i guessed at every point, we all got our own route to take,our own little journeys. as i'm on my journey to fulfill god's calling for me,i know that i'll still have my lovely friends,each taking their own journey,beside me supporting me,going " MEL I GOT YOUR BACK!"
and likewise, friends,my loves....
"I GOT YOUR BACKS AS WELL!"
so thankful to daddy for such friends, cause to have friends that i can be extremely real with....is an ABSOLUTE BLESSING.
I am living to make your name high!
i love spending time,sitting down,sipping over a cup of tea,while chatting with my closest friends.
friends,who i can be extremely real with.
and i did so today, with CANDY.
today was a fulfilling day, tomorrow shall be fulfilling too,with am.da.
i love them.
I am living to make your name high!
the weekends were treating me really well,with services on both days,fed me till i'm really well-fed.
on saturday the biggest thing i caught was "jesus loves me!" that simple, others may not love me,but JESUS does and forever will.
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but as a supporter of dbsk,the weekends were also the band's first performances at TOKYO DOME! i'm in singapore,so OBVIOUSLY i wasn't there, but i read a review of a fan,who went.and i got superly excited just by reading it.
and i'm glad that there might be a DVD for it! so yay! hopefully it comes with some subtitles. (daddy let there be eng subtitles!amen.)
but,from the reviews it seemed really good.
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when i read how excited the fan was,it reminded me of the time when i met a7x for the first time,and how i went to their concert,got squashed but nonetheless,protected. when i was reviewing,my language was extremely fangirl.like i would recall the sound,the song sequence,the little details like what was SYN doing, how was matt like. going "THEY'RE AWESOME LIVE!"
it's exciting,and tomorrow's SYN'S BIRTHDAY!!! 7/7. :D i'm still a fan alright. NO AMOUNT OF J/K POP/ROCK is going to change that.
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need to ask clinton if he wants to go for anberlin's gig.not a must at this point of time.
have to get ready for 25th july.lots of jumping to be done.woohoo!
I am living to make your name high!
even if no one loves me,the best man of all loves me.
his name is JESUS.i love him too. <3
but then again,because he loves me,there are bound to be people who loves me too.
for the first time,when pastor mentioned that we should trust god with our life partners, i said AMEN. normally i will be extremely pai seh,or feel no need to do so.
hmm...i wonder why the need to today.
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My whole life is yours, I give it all
Surrendered to your name.
And forever i will pray,
Have your way,have your way.
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i just told daddy god that i want to get married by 26. amen.
gosh,i wonder why recently i've been talking about life partners.
i know am.da and i were just talking about it,like our FAITH person.but when i talked to other people,they also mentioned about life partners and stuffs.and pastor mentioning it during his sermons.
mel: " DADDY ARE YOU TELLING ME SOMETHING??"
I am living to make your name high!
" if i'm going to kiss a guy,whose breath smells like a cig.it's like kissing a cig.and if i'm going to do so,i might as well just start lighting up myself."
~melissa
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not that i won't date a smoker.but he must be willing to quit.teachable.
thanks shir for asking.
I am living to make your name high!
i figured,some photos won't kill.all the talks about life partner lately really set me thinking.
i do have a faith picture/example/someone.
i hope it comes true.
I am living to make your name high!
went swimming with am.da yesterday at my place.well,i wouldn't say it's really a swim,more like soaking in the pool,watching her learning how to swim.
but it's really fun, we talked about a lot of stuffs.
and as girls...sorry ladies, we talked about BOYS....alright...sorry...it should be MEN.
and it's extremely funny when she talked about the type of men she likes.
it's really funny,but yet at the same time,she's always surprising me.
but yeah,i am trusting god that my life-partner will be like ________. it's either going to him,as in the exact person, or someone better. amen. :DD
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and to TCH, enough with the korean bf joke.it's not funny anymore!
I am living to make your name high!
