I THINK I'M ABSOLUTELY MAD...in the past. just read through my past diary before poly. indeed i was MAD. i was MAD to think that my daddy god would punish me.gosh..... -------------- had a nap just now, and i had a GREAT dream. to put it simply, i dreamt that i finally got to meet ry again after so long, and he gave me this wonderful huge hug. those kinds when i would feel extremely comfortable and secure. i miss those hugs... i woke up feeling extremely happy and a little loved. :D hahhaa. tch would mock me for sure. but the hug in my memory felt so real and so amazing. but all these happy feelings or "hope that it is REAL" feelings made me wonder if my feelings were ever gone.maybe all this while i've been deluding myself.
my name is Melissa
i am 20 this year.god...
i like to wonder my bed is so comfortable .
but i don't like to lie down the whole day ,
but i can listen to songs all day.trust me.
and i really love my daddy god.
My Desires and Wants
I WANT
a photography camera,
to hug synyster gates,
to see my fav bands someday,
and money,
and endless CDs,
and more rest time!zzzzz
and go to US one day,
tour the world,
adopt all the animals in the world,
have lots of fun,
have a porsche,
or a mazda,
be a successful illustrator,
and...ok,i am not that greedy.
oh and more bolsters!