been really drained lately.rushing for my eds is tough but i managed to do finish my illustrations.so thankful. but it has taken a toll on my patience level.and my attitude. the past few days,i think i behaved really different and kinda mean at some point or another. the worst affected one i think are my friends. i dont know if my friends from sch noticed this but if you guys do and happened to read this,i seriously apologized. the days where i feel so fucked up and tired.hope you guys understand. to tch,thanks for taking in all the shit.
eci is really tough.felt really demoralised when i saw the results. i felt angry with myself.well i felt very impatient at some point during the eci discussions because there were so many doubts.and my tone sometimes may seem really pissed off.feel seriously so bad.
but anyway,i rmb pastor joshua saying "if you think you are a cracked pot,God can use a cracked pot too." simply means that when you feel so screwed up,it's when his power shines in us the strongest.and millions amen to that. well tml is church time! so stress will be gone.cares with be cast aside.i cant wait.
my name is Melissa
i am 20 this year.god...
i like to wonder my bed is so comfortable .
but i don't like to lie down the whole day ,
but i can listen to songs all day.trust me.
and i really love my daddy god.
My Desires and Wants
I WANT
a photography camera,
to hug synyster gates,
to see my fav bands someday,
and money,
and endless CDs,
and more rest time!zzzzz
and go to US one day,
tour the world,
adopt all the animals in the world,
have lots of fun,
have a porsche,
or a mazda,
be a successful illustrator,
and...ok,i am not that greedy.
oh and more bolsters!